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We have been taught in our society to plan our lives and live within our visible means of support. If we fail to plan, then we plan to fail. It is important to understand that, however, there is an equally important way of being that has to be learned as well. We must learn to live close to our hearts and our dreams. When we live within our inspiration (our heart and dreams) we do what our heart tells us despite fearing a lack of support. We manifest the support we need without being able to see where it is going to come from most of the time. Balancing these two methods gives us an ability to know when to apply either method to the situations we face.

In 1988, I had been working for Honeywell for five years in Albuquerque New Mexico. One day, my higher self came to me while I was at my desk and said, "Its time for you to quit here and go on." I thought to myself, "Did I hear correctly? ...Is my higher self crazy?" I was quiet for a few minutes, trying to digest what the higher self said. I decided to give a piece of my mind to the higher self. I told the higher self that I had payments to make to my ex-wife and my truck. I told it that I

have worked here for five years and was just vested for retirement. I said that I would have to give that up while continuing the payments to my ex-wife and my truck. I told the higher self that I believe in the higher self and in following its guidance. However, I said that I needed to be sure that this was clearly what was desired of me, and not just my own imagination based upon me growing tired of doing the same old job. Therefore, I needed to have three very clear signs, -- not some wishy-washy signs, but three very clear signs -- so I would unmistakably know that it was a higher self message. At that point I would not hesitate to do what was requested. I laughed to myself and then said, "That will take my higher self a good long while to accomplish, so I am safe!"

Within one day I had all three very distinct signs and my foot was squarely in my mouth. I walked into personnel the next day and gave my two weeks notice. I was asked where was I going to go and what line of work I had lined up for myself. "I don't know," was my answer. This was the first time my higher self had me step clearly into the unknown without a visible means of support.

When we step off into the unknown, we receive an opportunity to learn firsthand just how much mental and emotional baggage we carry and how light and trusting our hearts really are. All of our issues come up when we face the unknown. Flower of Life was a good teacher for me, because we as facilitators are constantly stepping off into the unknown with each workshop and with each group while we remained in a vulnerable and openhearted state.

In general, I was very excited to be living in the moment but I did have to face my fears. Living in the moment, I had to stay alert to opportunities that would make themselves available. As the deadline approached on my two-week notice, I still did not have a clue what I would be doing. On the last day, the head of engineering came to me and asked if I would sub-contract. Higher self stepped through and lightened my heart with inspiration and said, "This is it!" I knew that I had to accept and so I did. In the new job, I was making 3-times the amount of my former position with half the work hours.

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